05/31/04, 3:27pm.
I will follow where you lead...
Yesterday was my sister's Memorial Day picnic. Despite the rainy weather, it was a good time. Lots of quality family/siblings time. With the 5 of us scattered through the state and even surrounding states, it's hard sometimes to get together. But fun was had, and after the party had dismissed, Chris, the kids, Fayanne, Emily, Tom and I stuck around to play Trivial Pursuit DVD Pop Culture edition. It was some uber good fun and I won (with the "help" of my nephew Mike).

I went to bed early, around midnight, because I had my alarm set for 8:45 this morning. While it might not sound early...I haven't been up that early since my last Hollywood II class a month ago. Crazy. But I had to get in my 30-minute walk before going out with Mom and Fayanne. (Yay! It's day 5 so I can start 30 minutes!) Anywho, we went to Sportmart, and I ended up getting two pairs of running shoes, because they were buy one get one half off, and I couldn't decide, and if one pair gets wet (like mine this morning did in the flooded path at Maplewood) I'll have a spare. Plus, once I make one my designated "running shoes" the other can be a normal pair of camp/everyday shoes. It will be excellent.

We had some leftover picnic foods for lunch, then I ran to McDonald's to buy Snickers McFlurries...4 of them, for us and Daddy. Remember, you should buy some too. Chicagoland is currently a test market, and if they do well this weekend, we'll have Snickers McFlurries permanently. Since they got rid of Butterfinger, and my sister-in-law will profit from this, there is really no reason to NOT buy one. So go ahead...treat yourself. Have you had your break today?

In other interesting news, my parents hit the big 35 today, as it is their anniversary. How scary is that? 35 years of marriage? I don't think they'll make another 35. Hell, I won't even hold my breath for another 5...but I guess we'll wait and see.

And now, I watch and episode of Gilmore Girls that just downloaded. No finale yet, but hopefully soon. I'm free today until about 8, so if any of you love me and want to see me, feel free to call or something. Warning, I might be napping. ;-)

Current Music: Where You Lead - Carole King

05/30/04, 1:53am.
I want to be big and let go...
Had dinner at Chipotle with Annie, Lela and Lela's cousin Bekah (sp?), followed by some Starbuck's goodness. I met up with them in Evanston, then had to flee back up north so that I could make the 8:20pm Love Me if You Dare at Renaissance in Highland Park with Amanda and Caitlin. Was a good movie, I definitely would like to own it. However, I hate that ticket prices are over $9. And since it's not going to cheap theatres, there's not so much of an option other than to wait to rent it or buy it in several months when it's released for sale on home video. The good thing about Renaissance, however, is that Landmark Cinemas have good previews for good upcoming movies, most of which are "artsy" or "art house" films. And despite the lack of truly independent films, many put out by art house branches of main studios (like Fox Searchlight, Miramax's Focus Features or Paramount Classics) are pretty good. Said film tonight was Paramount distributed, and I'm unfortunately a fan of many Focus films such as 21 Grams, Lost in Translation and the yet-to-be-seen Eternal Sunshine on the Spotless Mind.

Ahhh...film. Makes me remember just why I'm studying it. I get the kind of love and excitement before seeing some movies that I used to get with plays and theatre. While I still love them, hardship has made me see that theatre cannot be a path of my life. Film, however, seems alive, new and possible. Excitement.

After the movie, we rented Before Sunrise (because a preview we saw was for the upcoming sequel Before Sunset). Was surprisingly good. Ethan Hawke was good, but Julie Delpy stole the scenes. I was particularly surprised with the long takes and lack of staging. I feel like the actors were told very little, and were often making up what felt natural. Very interesting to watch, though at times, it was a little rough around the edges. Overall, just excellent to watch.

Talked with Zoe for a while, and I've decided to tell the parents about my supposed plan for the future. I can't hold back any longer, despite not really knowing what's going to happen. I can apply for transfer in August and then I'll be taking my last semester of classes at Indiana. We think. But I have to tell them before they start planning too far into the future. Between loans and talk of retirement, they need to know. Here's hoping for not getting my head bitten off. And for that matter, having the courage to tell them. I can already tell that tomorrow won't be a good time, but sometime this week. I think...

And now, I sleep. Because I'm tired, and I have to wake up at 10:30 so I can get in my walk and a shower before heading up to Chris's for her Memorial Day Picnic. Party.

Current Music: This Grudge - Alanis Morissette

05/29/04, 1:18am.
They heard the hum of the motors, they counted the rotors and waited for us to arrive...
Tonight was good. After ditching me for lunch plans, Caitlin came over after dinner and we watched Buffy the Vampire Slayer, the original Kristy Swanson movie version. I picked up Bentow and Johnson to come hang with us, then Amanda joined to watch Ferngully. Zoe came near the end of that and we started to watch Miss Congeniality. Busy night, but good. The kids left for curfew, and the girls stayed until the end of the movie. Soooo cute.

Found good running shoes. Now need mommy to come buy them for me. Party. But I did buy socks today. Those I can afford.

By the way...buy Snickers McFlurries from McDonalds. My sister-in-law sells the caramel that's used in them, and thus profits from the sales. Yay for money! Hey, if I can't have a job, someone may as well be successful...

Tomorrow, I will not only be on day 3 of routine, but will be meeting Lela and Annie for coffee. Annie's up from St. Louis for the weekend, and so they're coming up to Deerfield to see me. I'm so special!

And now, I'm sleepy and kitty is telling me it's bedtime. Good night loves.

Current Music: Goodnight Saigon - Billy Joel

05/27/04, 4:07pm.
Levon likes his money...
Last night was Choral Awards. Good time, saw lots of people. Sat with Carly and her mom, Cindy. Made me miss Mrs. Akers and Chorale. After the concert, I went with Carly, Zach and Mel to Kafeine in Evanston, where Alli and Tim came by later, and we ran into Em Baum on the way out. All was good.

This morning, I started my running routine with a lovely brisk walk. Was good. Soon, I'll be getting new running shoes, probably either tonight or tomorrow. Opa!

I could have sworn I had something of substance to say, but I can't think of anything more exciting than this. Watching re-runs of Buffy while waiting for Mama to come home. Nothing planned until Sunday when Chris has her Memorial Day picnic. So exciting, eh? *sigh*

Current Music: Levon - Elton John

05/25/04, 2:18am.
Cause I'm a train wreck waiting to happen...
Today...well, officially yesterday...was Zoe's birthday, so a bunch of us met up for ice cream at Ben & Jerry's and then came back to my house to watch Love Actually. 'Twas quite excellent to see Chazz and Rob...haven't seen them since Spring, maybe even Winter break. McAli, Ronni and Sara Thomas were also there...haven't seen them in a while. Then the usual gang of Nikki, Amanda, Caitlin for a moment, Aaron, Liz. Good turn out.

Of course, a very happy birthday to my Zo-Bee. She's lovely and wonderful. And now 19. Opa!

Tomorrow (actually tomorrow now) is Amanda's birthday. Another youngin' turning 19. But she'll be holding off until the rest of the kids get back from school. (Mainly Allie, cause we plotted earlier today to make Amanda wait until she gets home in 14 days. Not that we're counting days...)

Can't help but think of last year at this time. Prom. Our 4 day extravaganza of food, pictures, dancing, picnics, carriage rides, fancy dinners, comedy shows, hanging around, movies, staying up late, sleeping, cooking breakfast. Wow, I miss it. Tonight was the graduation for this year's Seniors (over a week before our's was!) but it is actually rather upsetting.

Starting with Theatre Night, I've kinda been reliving the end of Senior year. It was excellent. Slacking in classes, hanging out in the library, breaking all the little rules like playing cards in school and sitting on desks. Working very little, and enjoying every day. Then came the ending stuff. Boat Trip, Choral Awards, Theatre Night, Prom, Graduation. And *poofgone*. All was over.

Summer was good last year, but grasping. Everything has become just trying to hang on a bit longer to the good times. Trying to hoard what I can before it gets swept away. Wanting to inhale everything and not breathe out. I guess maybe I'm scared that nothing will be that good again. I'm probably afraid that I've had too many bad times that seem to be indicating what the future will hold. What happened to the best years of my life? I feel like they've already passed. I understand that I have always been a little older. A little more mature...but I didn't think it would mean being so out of place. No, I take that back. I guess I've always felt out of place. As scary as it is, I contemplated momentarily dropping out of school and starting a life. A real one with work and a home and living in this so-called "real world." Of course, it's not going to happen. A waste of a 3.6 GPA, or something. Not to mention the severe lack of a job currently, and the horrible lack of skills I possess. I'm a good person, I just need some more experience. I need to be a cashier, I need to be a waitress. I need those types of skills so that when it comes down to it, I can get a job in that area. I just don't want to be a dependant anymore. I don't want to be a burden on the parents. I don't want to be the only one without a home, a family, a life of their own.

So many thoughts running through my head. About my dad possibly retiring in 2 and a half years. Moving to Florida. School...and the impossibility of paying. Transferring at the semester. Staying for first, or taking a semester off. Need money. Can't do anything. Feeling trapped and even more dependant. I need to set out on my own. I need to be my own person. I need to find somewhere I don't feel suffocated.

And as usual, I find my sweet relief in sleep, because in dreams, there is no real stress. No responsibilities or obligations. In dreams, I am free.

Current Music: Cycling through Alanis' So-Called Chaos and Sarah's Afterglow.

05/22/04, 8:50pm.
But who's it hurting now...?
So much trouble!

Wednesday, I got my hair dyed...lots of red and brown. I like it. That night, we went to see Shrek 2. Thursday, Zoe, Mulder and I hung out at Maplewood until the rain came, then we rented Paycheck, Girl With A Pearl Earring, and Matchstick Men. Each was good in their own, very different ways. Paycheck was creative, Pearl Earring was just absolutely beautiful to watch, and Matchstick Men was just plain good.

Friday, I had dinner at Chipotle with Patty and others, then we went to Theatre Night. Fun times. Made me miss high school theatre like absolute mad. *sigh* Then some graduates and myself went to a late meal at Stake N Shake with Eric. Fun fun fun.

Today, I took Zoe (the niece) to see Shrek 2 (still good), and then we had lunch and hung out at Best Buy. I bought her a DVD, and myself the new Alanis CD, So-Called Chaos, as well as getting Drop Dead Gorgeous for $6 and The Care Bears Movie (the ORIGINAL!!!) for $10. Now I really need a job. Because I appear to be a shopaholic. I just couldn't help myself.

Then there was a big family dinner because my aunt and cousin were down from Iron Mountain, MI so fun was had there.

Now, Bentow, Mulder and Caitlin are here...possible Zoe and Rob later. And party will happen.

Current Music: This Grudge - Alanis Morissette

05/19/04, 12:01pm.
I will follow anywhere that you tell me to...
So, since last night and watching the series finale of Gilmore Girls, I've become slightly obsessed. I've been downloading and such, though I've only gotten two episodes so far. Sooooo long to download!

Anyway, the point of this is that on this last episode I watched, Sebastian Bach was on. As in...Skid Row. WTF, mate? Crazy crazy, but whatever.

Now I laze until 1, when I leave for my hair appointment. That's the big event of the day. I'm probably going darker (for the first time in 6 years) and maybe doing some mocha, lots of red and who knows what else. Mmm...lots of streaks again.

Aww, crap. I have to send in my response card to my sister's wedding soon. Anyone want to be my "and guest"?

Current Music: Where You Lead - Carole King

05/18/04, 6:33pm.
You should know it's love that brought you here...
It's hard to update when there's nothing to tell. What have I been doing? Watching TV, watching movies, listening to music. Yeah, it's been dull. Everytime the phone rings, I jump up, but so far no word from any of the jobs. ARG! It's so frustrating.

West Wing Season 2 was released on DVD today. If I had money, it would be mine. If I had a job, I'd have money. FRUSTRATING.

That's really all that's been going on. Doing nothing, worrying about everything. And now, back to watching 7th Heaven. So sad, but true.

Current Music: I'd Give My Life For You - Miss Saigon

05/15/04, 8:40pm.
She's ahead of her time...
Still no word from jobs. Need to go to Regal and maybe the Showplace theatres and see if I can do that. Free movies for a film major? Could be helpful. Mmm...maybe I could work at Renaissance in Highland Park. Free artsy movies!

Anywho, yesterday I went down to Mattoon, IL with Emily and Tom. They were heading down a day early for the shower and to avoid a long and awkward carride with the mother and grandmother, I chose to go down early and spend the night with Fayanne and Brad. They have a very nice house, and fun was had last night. Note to self: Don't play games with Brad. He has a thing about winning. ;-)

This morning, the 5 of us went to breakfast, and then chilled until Shower time. More fun presents that I want for me. Oh well, someday I'll get married. HA!

Came back today with Mom and Grandma. Tried desperately to sleep. Was conscious for half the ride. I did not approve. Note to self: BUY NEW EARPHONES! An iPod is no good without something to listen with!!!!

I just went to dinner at Panera with Whitney and now I'm waiting around with Zoe until 9 when we'll head to the High School to see the Spring Play get out and pick up our Miss Molly for some fun out tonight. I love me some Molly!

In the past two weeks, I have not seen Becca once! Travesty! The girl needs to stop having so much work! I've seen Molly and Whitney and it's just wrong. Just. Wrong.

Anywho, must get going. Opa.

Current Music: She's Always a Woman to Me - Billy Joel

05/13/04, 6:55pm.
I try counting sheep...
Yes, that's right. I'm up at 6am! I know it's close to 7 at this point, but I've been up for a good 20 minutes.

It's entirely all the stress over getting a second job. I went applying yesterday. It felt like I had been everywhere, but I really only filled out applications at Bennigan's, On the Border in Vernon Hills and Olive Garden. TGI Fridays doesn't accept help for only the summer and Olive Garden basically told me they didn't either but I filled out the application anyway.

Bennigan's is supposed to call me back today (hense the waking up obscenely early. Cause, ya know, they would actually call me at 7am. The best news I got was from On the Border. I actually had an interview there and the woman said she liked me and would try to work something out, but that they had two people in training right now, so she wouldn't be able to call for at least a week.

Arg. I swear, if I give myself an ulcer at age 19 over all this shit, I'm going to quit life. I'll take all the money I have and move to Everest to become a sherpa.

SHERPA.

Anyway, I was thinking when I woke up at 6:30 that perhaps I'd apply at Regal cinema. I could take the late shift on weekdays and they would love me! It's not elegant work, but at least I could be working for several hours. The problem with retail sales is that I have camp from 9am-3pm so I wouldn't be able to start work until 4pm at the earliest. And when stores close at 9, it's hard to make those 5 hours worth anything. And besides, it's such a tight, unflexible shift. At least at a restaurant I have from 4 until 11 (at the earliest) and the movie theatre is open until past midnight. Get off work at one, wake up at 8 the next morning? That's not bad at all. Maybe if I become a work-aholic this summer, I'll get enough money to...yeah. There's no way in hell I'd ever get enough money for anything. But it was a nice thought. A new pair of New Balance maybe. I need to start a routine of running or I never will. And I can't run in my current shoes. The worn out state just hurts my feet and shins. Just what I need, more foot problems, eh?

*breathe*

I have to keep reminding myself to do that. The good thing is, if you forget to breathe, your body will just pass out and start breathing involuntarily. It's a win-win situation. Unless it causes a stroke...

Okay, I'm going to attempt sleep. But first, why to American Express card holders get to order tickets for Alanis and Barenaked Ladies on presale? And they sure as hell better be reserving better seats than the second pavillion for the general release on Sunday. I know I don't have the money, but it's Alanis. And Barenaked Ladies. I don't even mind that it's Tweeter. And tickets are only $47 for those amazing artists. Aerosmith? Good, but $93 hurts. If I can get first pavillion on Sunday, I'll charge it. Otherwise maybe I'll see if anyone wants to pay $37 for lawn tickets...

Current Music: When I Fall - Barenaked Ladies

05/11/04, 12:12pm.
I know you feel helpless now and I know you feel alone...
How brilliant if all of the nation's most wealthy individuals could think this way. "When I help people, I help myself. I can't change a country as a single person, but I have to do my part."

In Ethiopia, the most visible and the richest people are the track and field athletes who clean up the olympics, marathons and other merited races.

So what do they do with their wealth?

Build schools. Run orphanages for AIDS-abandoned children. Invest in the nations industries to boost economy. And so much more. And these are people who make only $1 million annually. What is Bill Gates doing with his billions? Michael Jordan?

Simply amazing.

Current Music: The Road I'm On - 3 Doors Down

05/10/04, 10:43pm.
Everything falls apart...
Spent the afternoon and evening chilling with Zoe. Was a party. Watched French Kiss, which really never gets old. Kevin Klein makes that movie, he really does.

Bad news: I'm not going to get the second job that I thought I was going to. Which sucks ass because I was really relying on not only starting work early, but having the income of two jobs. I can't wait until the end of June to get $130 as my first check, especially since I owe Allie $93 and Zoe $40. Both said they weren't in a hurry, but that's insane that it's taking me this long. And it means that I'm not going to have "spending money" until the middle of July.

What the fuck? I'm going to be spending the next 2 months with the $15 I have in my checking account? There's no way in hell. Even if I decide to not buy tickets to the Alanis/Barenaked Ladies concert, which would rock, food is no longer free on a meal plan. I won't be able to go to the doctor because it's too expensive. And I can't ask my parents to pay for it, because they already pay for so much of mine, including out of state tuition that is the anti-affordable, my car, my gas for my car, my food and shelter, my clothes, my cell phone, my prescriptions, my insurance...basically my life.

I was planning to visit my aunt in Florida at the end of the summer. I guess I can't do that now. I need new sneakers for camp and working out (mine are falling apart, no longer support my feet and are 2 1/2 years old) and I can't afford those now either. I wanted to invest in a camcorder, cause I'm a film major and it would be nice if I could start experimenting with making movies. And then there's the whole fact that people like to go out for coffee, or dinner, or movies, or anything that costs money. I guess I'll just have to be anti-social this summer. I can stick to wallowing in my basement and getting fat.

It's a good thing not too many people read this. Public breakdowns can be pretty embarassing.

Current Music: Stupid - Sarah McLachlan

05/10/04, 2:11pm.
Remember when this was my life...
Question: Why would anyone buy the set of seasons 1-6 of Buffy on amazon.com for $288 when buying each season individually adds up to only $253? Nothing special comes with buying them as one unit, so why waste $35?

In other news, I'm bored and playing around on amazon.com. Exciting, eh?

Current Music: Life of My Own - 3 Doors Down

05/09/04, 9:54pm.
...
Damn. I just sorted my DVDs, putting empty cases in a box, and any cases that still have the DVD or one of the DVDs still in it aside.

139. I have 139 DVDs. When I went to school, I had about 60. Holy damn.

So I ordered a 264 slot CD binder. I'm really excited to organize them all alphabetically. Yeah, I'm a geek who likes order. Unfortunately in organizing them all, I found that I have lost 3 DVDs in the past year. North By Northwest, Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, and Finding Nemo (Disc 1 - the widescreen disc).

Alan Rickman is god. It's decided. [Watching HP and the Sorcerer's Stone on ABC.]

Current Music: HP Theme - John Williams

05/09/04, 1:21am.
All this pleasure gets them high...
Intense week. Finished up finals. English paper ended fairly well, actually. Hollywood II final wasn't wonderful. I got an 88...I definitely wanted higher. But that's okay. Art History is still to be decided, but I think I kicked it's ass.

Then there was an issue with coming home. While I wanted to and was ready to leave at 3pm on Friday, circumstances and fate kicked me in the face a few times and Lela and I had to wait to drive home at 6:45 this morning. So that I could get home with (barely) enough time to shower and get to my sister's bridal shower. Which I had to be on time for, cause I'm a bridesmaid. Yeah, you know how that goes.

So last night, we got to spend one last night with Chad, Annie, Ross, Caitlin, Josh, and Mark. Was a pretty good time, but we were up late, and the entire time I kept thinking, "I should be home now." I hate being late and I hate when the best laid plans come undone. It's a disappointment, and lord knows I've had enough of those in my life...

So anyway, I got to bed at 1:45 and woke up at 6:15, and then drove for a longer period of time than I had slept. That was fun. *sarcasm*

But I got home. Went to the shower. Spent some family time. Applied for a second job at Home Depot. [With Emily making the schedules, she can work around my schedules, which will be nice.] Then I napped, played Scrabble with Brad and Fayanne, and just got back from seeing Van Helsing with Caitlin, Zoe and Bittner.

[...]

Even with taking artist license into account for the GAPING plot holes, the movie was so bad, it was offensive. As if you couldn't follow the plot, it spelled everything out for you and explained things several scenes after the audience had figured it out. Like the fact that werewolves can kill vampires. Thanks, I got that when the priest saw the painting. You don't have to EXPLICITLY state every piece of the plot. The director should be kicked in the head.

The only good part of the film? Amazing graphics, sets, and costumes. Oh, and Dracula is just plain cool. Yum.

And now, I'll be trying to find something to keep me entertained or I'll just be hitting the hay. I'm still not running on much sleep, so I'm using the next week to catch up. It's about time, eh?

Current Music: Baby I'm a Big Star Now - Counting Crows

05/05/04, 3:44pm.
The night's too long and cold here without you...
EEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! Justin and I have tickets to Sarah McLachlan on Friday, August 27th in Indy!!!!!! SOOOOOO excited!

AND!!! This summer! Barenaked Ladies are touring with Alanis! I am going to explode with amazing concertness! Ticketmaster needs to get these things posted so I can spend money that I don't have!!!!!

Note to self: FIND A SECOND JOB! I need to start whoring myself out to the corporate world, ASAP!

Current Music: I Love You - Sarah McLachlan

05/05/04, 1:22pm.
You leave me here burning in this desert without you...
Happy Cinco de Mayo!

You know what that means? It's Michael's birthday, and in exactly 6 months, I will be twenty. 20. Oh damn, start the countdown. Not quite crisis time yet, but getting there. 6 months. 20 years old. Well shoot.

Today I'm bitter. I don't quite know why. But I'm cynical and evil today. I know, I know...when aren't I cynical and bitter? Not very often, but today it's in overdrive. Love does not exist, happiness is a facade and all that jazz. So today I am glad that in 3 days I'll be heading home. There are too many "happy" people here and I don't like it.

Well, I have to write a paper and study and pack today, so it will be quite busy and hectic.

Current Music: Angry, bitter, chick rock. Duh.

05/03/04, 5:00pm.
You're no good for me, but you're the only one I see...
Kill Bill (Vol. 2) is excellent. SO much better than the first. It was excellent, and basically stand alone. The first seems entirely unnecessary and basically a prologue. I will definitely be buying on DVD when it is released.

My final this morning was alright. It was french and I don't know if I did poorly or not. It didn't feel bad, but I guess I'll find out later. Next final is Finite, tomorrow at 7pm, so I have plenty of time. I'll be working on my English paper until then. And possibly seeing an advanced screening of Troy if we can get get tickets. Mmm...free.

Finally, the video of "Stupid" is excellent. As is the song. Check it out at www.sarahmclachlan.com.

Current Music: Stupid - Sarah McLachlan

05/02/04, 9:02pm.
I thought we'd be inspired together...
Indy was fun. Didn't see the movie, but dinner at the Spaghetti Factory was excellent, the Indianapolis Art Museum was decent (a very pretty Renoir as well as some impressive pointalism work). Today we had an amazing brunch buffet at the Hyatt. Shirmp, sushi, lox, fresh fruit, as well as pasta dishes, made-to-order omlettes, and SO much more. It was well worth the *cough* $23 a person. Good thing it was all paid for with floor funds.

Got back here at 2:15, and my parents were already in town, and had been since 1pm. Oops, but I told them to try and get here at 3, so it was their fault. ;-)

I already had 4 boxes packed, and I loaded up several more. My room has been de-postered, de-pictured, de-videoed and -DVDed, and mostly de-clothed. A whole bunch of random stuff was put into boxes and shipped home. Everything is really empty right now. It's kinda nice. 5 days! The end is SOOOO near!

This afternoon, I went with Katie, Lela and Justin (our apartment next year!) to see Laws of Attraction. I loved it. It wasn't anything amazing, but the entire film was just...so familiar. I am Audrey from that movie, except for her good work ethic. Want to get into my head? See it.

After, I went with Ross, Annie, Mark and Lauren to dinner. And Annie, Ross and I decided that we need to see Kill Bill, Vol. 2 so we'll be heading to that in about 10 minutes. I'm not a big fan of the violence, but this isn't supposed to be as bad as the first one...and I feel like I should see it. Everyone has been talking about it, so it's about time.

Anyway, I will be franticallly studying French tonight. I have an A-, and my teacher likes me. Plus, I've been taking French for 7 years. Studying seems redundant. Or something...?

Current Music: Simple Together - Alanis Morissette

05/01/04, 1:04am.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it, where's the sense in that...?
Today was quite surreal. My classes are over. Finals next week, but no more class until the fall. So odd. It doesn't feel like the end at all. I guess unlike high school, and really anything before this, there was no winding down. We were working until the end, so much so that everything feels incomplete. There is no closure, but I guess that's what finals are for...

After my one class, we returned our micro/fridge. We're now without a microwave and refrigerator for the next week. Suckitude. Then I ran to the bank and Target. Bought Love Actually and Big Fish. Pretty good prices on both, but if you want to be a real fenageler...go to Target for Love Actually ($15.99) and Best Buy for Big Fish ($15.99). Each is $17.99 at the other store. Or pay the extra $2 to not have to make two stops. Whatever floats your boat.

After that, things got really unproductive. I took Lela, Chad and Katie to Brown County so they could shoot some footage for their Media project. Grabbed dinner. Packed some boxes for my parents to pick up on Sunday (on their way home from Florida). And for some reason, that took up about 4 hours.

I talked to Zoe on the phone for over an hour, then Katie and I were going to watch Love Actually, but I'm really tired, and we have to get up at 9:15am for the Indy trip. Exciting and stuff. Shopping, eating, hanging, swimming, Kill Billing, and other good stuff. It'll be a nice mini-vacation for 30 hours. And needed, I'm sure. Maybe the break will motivate me to work for the next week, cause right now, I can't even seem to write the rough draft of my English final paper (which was due on Wednesday). *sigh*

To bed. Feel free to call while I'm in Indy. I like feeling loved and popular. ;-) Happy weekend, kiddles.

Current Music: White Flag - Dido